Always Been You

~Lola’s POV~

Despite the late hour, there is a pleasant warmth in the air. With nary a breeze in sight tonight, the lingering coolness from a cool day hangs over the mountain. I felt Mason wrap his hand around my waist and wanted to draw back, but he begged me not to. We were sitting on top of a rock. He reclined back, his weight supported by a tree trunk. He opened his legs and motioned for me to sit between them.

“You know, I don’t know what it is that makes you keep holding on to your husband. But I’m not giving up on you, Lola.”Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

“He’s going to kill you if he finds out.” I sneered at my own assertion. Will he? Does he even care about me at all? What matters to him is Candice?”

“I’m willing to die for you, Lola.” He lifted my chin so that I could face him. I could feel his cock pressing against my behind.

No, Lola. This is inappropriate.

He leaned in to press his lips against mine with a gentle kiss. I sighed and parted my lips, giving him access to his exploration of my mouth.

What the fuck am I doing?

My body stiffened. This is wrong. I’m still a married woman. No matter how much I hate Dante at the moment, this isn’t right. I got up and Mason pulled me back, but this time I stood my ground.

“Listen, Mason, I can’t do this right now. My husband and I are still married, regardless of our distance.” He wouldn’t let me finish. He pulled me to him and claimed my lips once more, “Stop talking. Nothing in this world is going to make me give up on you, not even your words or your husband.” He leaned in for a deeper kiss, and his hands grabbed my waist. I shut my eyes. I want this. God, I’m so confused right now. I want to be with my husband, and right now, this feels wrong, but I want this. It’s been four years since someone has touched me in this way. I closed my eyes again and let out a whimper, then melted into his arms. I felt Mason’s hand come up to my jaws as he gently turned my head toward him. I was still wondering if this was right or not. His eyes glistened in the reflection of the outer world. He dragged me into his arms while sucking on my lower lip and claiming my mouth. I separate my lips as he pushes his tongue inside while his hands glide under my hoodie in search of my breast, and I pull away.

“I’ll have to find June.”

“Yea, right June. She said two of her friends were joining us. She’s most likely with them right now. Go find her. I’ll go with the boys.”

The sun was lowering slowly behind the hills. I left Mason to go look for June. I chose to go to where we had parked our cars. As I got closer, I heard voices from behind one of the cars. June’s voice in particular. I quickly put my bag inside Mason’s car and went to check if she was okay after closing the truck. Before I could walk to the other side of the truck, I heard her say something that stopped me in my tracks.

“These pictures might not mean so much to Mr. Monroe. Lola hasn’t fallen for Mason, but I can guarantee you she has feelings for him. I’m not sure why she’s holding back.”

“Do you think it’s because of her husband?” Someone made a remark.

“Look, we are not sure if Dante Monroe is her husband. The pictures I sent of her and Mason kissing should be enough for us to know if he is her husband. He’s going to get furious and call her.”

“I can’t believe you are using your brother to have a chance with Mr. Monroe. God, Mason is going to kill you if he ever finds out that you took pictures of him and Lola.” A different voice from the first one made a remark.

“Argh, this is so annoying. Mason is supposed to be mine, but he is busy with a married woman who has three children. Oh God, how I hate that girl.” The first voice made another remark.

“What if Mason finds out June? Are you not scared?” The second voice inquired. There were a few chuckles as my heart cracked. I put my hand on my mouth to keep my sobs from escaping.

“June, you played her so well that the fool thought you liked her. I mean, she thought you guys were friends.”

How could I have been so clueless?

How could she do this to me? Was I seriously that stupid?

My heart felt like someone had squeezed the life out of it. Hearing her speak about how much she detests me caused my eyes to well up with tears. My head was pounding.

I couldn’t breathe…

I should have trusted my gut feelings. Why am I here? I should have been in NYC with my kids and trying to make my husband understand why I ran away. Now, I would look like a complete idiot in front of Dante. I just gave him enough reason to raise my children with Candice. I ruined everything. As I clung to my chest, trying to breathe, as tears streamed down my cheeks.

“Lola.” Mason breathed out, “Why are you standing there?” He paused, “Wait, are you crying?” After Mason’s statement, I came face-to-face with June, who had lost her footing and whose eyes had widened.

“Lola.” She breathed out.

“Oh come on, June, at least she knows how much you hate her now. Otherwise, why would you send pictures of her and Mason to her husband?” Mavis came out with her friend Olivia. I swallowed the lump in my throat harshly.

So this is what betrayal feels like. Did Dante feel this way after learning he was a father? Because I feel as though my heart has been wrenched from its place. Because of this, I may never see my children again. I’m not going to be able to defeat Dante right now. A cheating wife, he has proof, and I have nothing. I just heard about his scandals. There is no proof. He has pictures of me and Mason. I am finished.

“Does it even matter?” I mumbled something to my stupid self, hoarsely. Mavis and Olivia were exchanging looks while June was staring at the ground guiltily. She’s only feeling guilty because I found out about her schemes.

“June, what’s going on here? Why are Mavis and Olivia with you? Are these the two friends you’ve been waiting for? Mason finally spoke. I gave June one final look, and I turned around and started walking away, but Mason grabbed my hand and said, “Lola, what happened?” I shook him off.

“Ask your sister.” That’s what I muttered as I walked away, my eyes welling up. June has no idea what she has done. I was still trying to find a way to explain my actions to Dante and now this.

Wow, well done, Lola!