Chosen By The Moon

Chapter 0213

Lewis POV.

“You can't look at me without seeing what King Josh did to me, can you?" I watched helplessly as her eyes began to water slightly at her words. I couldn’t for the life of me believe that’s what she thought. This girl in front of me, had been through so much, and the only thing I ever saw when I looked at her was a true leader.

"No, it's not that at all, Dylan..." I had to cut myself off while I quickly thought about my next sentence. I couldn’t just turn around and blurt out that she was my chosen mate? That I loved her with my entire being, that I wanted her to let me love her, I couldn’t explain that I wanted nothing more than to hold onto her until the day I died. "I promise you, it really isn't like that, honestly.” How could she not believe me, she’s been through so much, I knew that, but I thought I had at least managed to show her that I was different, I wasn’t just some lycan hell bent on human slavery. “I... I sometimes have to remind myself of what he did."

I was actually quite proud of my answer at first, I made it very clear that I thought she was beautiful, I told her that she unknowingly turned me on, and that I had to pace myself with her. I had to remind myself of everything she had been through so I didn’t come on too strong. So that I didn’t chase her away. I would never force myself onto her no matter how badly I wanted her, I could never do that after everything she has taken on.

"You want to remind yourself of it?" Oh shit… maybe I wasn’t so clear. I watched helplessly as anger clouded her beautiful features, I’d fucked up big time now. I quickly shook my head and growled slightly my hand roughly ran through my hair in exasperation, I had no clue how I could have been bungling up so badly. “Why?! Why would you want to remember the most humiliating and soul destroying moment of my life?"

"That's not what I meant, I just..." I growled again and turned my head away from my girl. She had to know that I obviously didn’t mean it like that. “I just meant that I have to remind myself of everything sometimes because…” It was because I wanted her, I wanted her so bad, and I couldn’t have her, she wasn’t ready. “Well, with the way you’ve moved on, it’s just difficult to believe, you’re doing so well now that you’re here.” That only caused her expression to change to one that showed nothing but sorrow and demoralization, and it absolutely stung knowing I was the one who made her feel that way. NôvelDrama.Org: owner of this content.

That face she was making, why was she looking at me the same way she looked at him? Like I had betrayed her very being. Honestly though, even in that moment I couldn’t get Her screams from that day to stop haunting me… and the agony I felt in my chest, the pain I felt from being made to watch was unbearable, a lot more so than being rejected by my first mate. I hated seeing Dylan go through everything she did, but that day was the worst thing Josh had done to her, and I hated the fact that I was forced to witness it and not be able to do a single thing about it. I have hated myself, everyday for standing idly by and watching her go through so much, and to make matters even worse, I left her with him… I left her alone and scared with the person that abused and tortured her. I knew it then and I knew it now, Dylan was my one true mate.

“Urgh, I'm not explaining this right at all am I?" I really wasn’t making myself clear even though I thought at first that I was doing ok. I felt my heart rate begin to hammer inside my chest, panic swept through me as I thought about how this misunderstanding could drive her completely away from me, just when she had finally begun to let down her guard around me.

"I get it, you don't have to justify yourself." Her eyes were filling up more and more as she thought about my idiotic words. Honestly, what was I supposed to say? Was I supposed to tell her that she was my mate? That I had fallen for her harder than I ever thought possible?

“Dylan, please just… please, just Let me explain myself.” She shook her head, and blinked her tears away quickly, I watched the walls she had built around herself shoot right back up, and her

sorrowful expression turned emotionless instantly, her eyes held nothing but emptiness when they looked at me, it was almost like a switch, one that she had created to stop my kind from seeing her true terrified self.