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Chapter 56: Pregnancy Test

"What happened,Lyka? Why are you crying?" Miss Linda asked, concern etched on her face as we both sat on my bed. Joday was on her bed, attentively looking at me. The two of them had been comforting me earlier, eager to understand why I was crying. My heart pounded in my chest as I stood there, torn between the desire to confide in them and the fear of the drama that would inevitably follow. The weight of my secret threatened to crush me, but I couldn't find the right words to express it. Joday's eyes bore into mine, her impatience evident, waiting for an answer that seemed impossible to give. Miss Linda's concerned gaze added to the pressure, and I felt myself choking on the words I longed to say. Finally, with a trembling voice, I managed to speak, "The reason why I am crying is because... I think... I think I'm p-pregnant." As soon as the words left my lips, the room fell into an eerie silence. The air seemed heavy, charged with emotions waiting to erupt. Joday's eyes widened in shock, and Miss Linda's face turned pale. It felt strange repeating it, but there it was - the possibility that Kiro and I had conceived a child during what happened at Aunt Tarling's apartment. The thought was both exhilarating and terrifying. I couldn't confirm it yet, but the mere idea left me feeling overwhelmed with emotions. I couldn't hold back the tears that threatened to fall again. My emotions were all over the place. Joday's enthusiastic response surprised me, "What? Then, why are you crying then? That’s a news! We should celebrate it!" Celebrate? Yes, it should be a reason for celebration, but instead, I felt a mix of nervousness and uncertainty. I gently touched my stomach, as if trying to connect with the life that may be growing inside me, even though it was too early to be certain. "I'm sorry if that's how mom first felt about you, son– if you're really inside," I whispered, feeling a strange mixture of love and fear for the potential life inside me. "L-lyka, K-kiro is the father?" Mis Linda asked, seeking confirmation.

I couldn't help but let out a small, bitter laugh. "Who else will be its father?" I replied, realizing the answer was so obvious. "What? So that child is—” Joday began, but I interrupted her, feeling the need to clarify. "It's still just a thought. I'm not sure if I'm pregnant," I said, my voice wavering. Joday insisted, "Then, we should be sure!" She seemed determined to find out the truth. I was unsure about the process, but Joday had already prepared a pregnancy test. That night, she went out to the convenience store just to buy these tests so we could be certain. I nodded, feeling a mix of anxiety and gratitude for her support. "We'll wait here, Lyka," Miss Linda reassured me as I went into the bathroom of the maid's quarter. Holding the pregnancy test in my hand, I stared at it for a few moments, unsure of how to use it. Feeling embarrassed, I stepped out again to seek guidance. Both Miss Linda and Joday eagerly stood up, waiting for the news I was about to share. "What? How was it? Are you pregnant, Lyka?" Miss Linda asked. "Miss... I don't know how to use it," I admitted shyly. Joday couldn't hide her surprise, "What? Even I, a virgin, knows how to use it! Just pee on it, Lyka!" On any other normal day, I would have burst into laughter at Joday's remark. Her humorous and straightforward nature would have managed to lighten the mood and bring a smile to my face. But today was different. The weight of uncertainty and the possibility of being pregnant made it hard to find the usual joy in her words. Miss Linda offered guidance, "You just urinate on it, Lyka." I nodded, feeling a little foolish for not knowing such a simple thing. I quickly went back inside the bathroom, my heart pounding with nervousness about the results of the pregnancy test. I stood in the bathroom, trying to urinate as instructed, but my nerves got the best of me, and I couldn't do it. Feeling awkward just standing there, I stepped out of the bathroom, admitting my struggle to Joday and Miss Linda. "Oh, Lyka! What? Are you pregnant or not?" Joday asked impatiently. When I said I couldn't pee, she sighed in disappointment. Còntens bel0ngs to Nô(v)elDr/a/ma.Org

"W-what? You don’t know whether you’re pregnant or not?" she said as she returned to her bed. "No, Joday. I just couldn't pee. How can I know for sure if I can't do it?" I replied, feeling a bit frustrated. I knew it was important to find out, but I couldn't force my body to cooperate. Miss Linda intervened, suggesting we find out tomorrow and encouraging me to rest. Joday added, "Sleep well, Lyka. That's healthy for the baby." They were both humorous and caring, and their words brought a smile to my face. "Thank you both so much," I said before going to bed, caressing my stomach gently. The warmth of my touch reminded me of the tears I shed earlier. Why did I cry at the thought of being pregnant? What were these conflicting emotions I was experiencing? As I closed my eyes, I reached out to the tiny presence growing within me and spoke tenderly to the child in my mind. "If there's something inside, I'm sorry for what Mother felt earlier. I didn't mean it. I don't even know if I'm pregnant or not, but what I'm sure of is that I will love you," I whispered in my thoughts. At that moment, I wholeheartedly believed that mothers and their children were connected even before birth. It was as if an invisible bond already tied us together. With a sincere promise, I vowed to the little one that I would love them unconditionally, no matter what the future held. My words were filled with warmth and reassurance, intended to let them know that they were deeply cherished. A smile crept onto my face as I recalled Joday and Miss Linda's actions. Their care for me warmed my heart, but I couldn't help but feel anxious about Kiro's reaction. How would he take the news? How could I tell him? He was still recovering from his illness, and there were lingering issues that could be triggered by such news. But it wasn't his fault. I knew that. He couldn't control his memories or his emotions. "Go to sleep, Lyka. I can hear your sighs. Don't think about it and go to sleep," Joday called out to me. I smiled in response and took one last deep breath. I wished for a good day tomorrow, hoping that whatever lay ahead, I would find the strength and courage to face it.