Sassy Angel’s Secret Sin

Chapter 79

Chapter 79 – Hoping For A Chance (Anj‘s POV)

“Are you sure you‘ll be fine here with the kids?” I asked Anya as she massaged her legs. She complained about her muscles feeling stiff and her feet sore after walking for almost two hours. Well, at most times, we walked, but sometimes it was more like running after my kids, , being their first time in the amusement park.

“Yeah! Go!” She winced as she looked up at the Ferris Wheel. I knew how much she liked riding it, loved seeing everything on the ground from the top, but something seemed to stop her. From NôvelDrama.Org.

Sitting on the wooden bench, my three girls enjoyed their cotton candy, not minding if their mother was riding the Ferris Wheel. “If I have to walk again, I’ll die early, Anj,” She chuckled. “Enjoy the ride.” She smiled, glancing at Dylan as he bought tickets for us. “That‘ll be a few minutes,” I said worriedly, looking at the kids. “They‘ll be fine with me, Anj. Don‘t worry, and please, don‘t kill the romance up there,” She reminded me, moaning as she leaned on the bench‘s backrest. “Romance?” I raised my eyebrows at her and shook my head. “I‘d rather have you up there and I, here with my children.” “Give the guy a chance, Anj,” She turned to the three girls, who stopped eating and blinking at her. “Don‘t that to Aunt Anya because you‘re creeping me out. When you grow up, you‘ll understand why I‘m doing this for mommy.” She leaned her head toward me. “I don‘t sound pimping you out to Dylan, right?” I heaved a sigh and chose to press my lips as Dylan walked in our direction. “Ready?” He asked when he reached us. I nodded, looking at my children again. “Anya, make sure you look after my children. If something happens to them, I‘ll kill you.” She heaved a sigh. “I will,” she rolled her eyes at me. “If something happens to them, after you kill me, their father will probably kill me again.” “You‘re funny, Aunt Anya,” Leyanne giggled. I squat and hold Leyanne‘s hands. “You look after your sisters, okay?” Anya leaned forward and poked my arm. “It‘ll just be a few minutes, Anj. You‘re not staying there forever.”

I breathed out. “Yeah,” I said, unsure if I was nervous about leaving my kids for a few minutes or spending time with Dylan alone in a confined place where I could not escape.

“Let‘s go?” Dylan asked.

I nodded and glanced at my kids once more before walking with him to the Ferris Wheel.

“Relax, Anj,” He chuckled, showing me that beautiful smile. “Don‘t tell me this is your first

time to do this?”

“Which one?” Igrinned as we stopped to line up with the others waiting for the ride.

He grabbed my hand, squeezing as he smiled at me.

“It‘s hard to choose which one. You always leave your kids to Anya, but now you seem to doubt it.” He said, intertwining our fingers.

I swallowed hard, unsure of what to do with our hands.

“Are you nervous about being alone with me?” He tilted his head to look me in the eyes.

I chucked. “It could be Dylan,” I raised our hands together. I felt like after this; I would be sent to a CEO’s office because Selene had my phone. I was not even sure why I felt guilty, but it seemed I was doing some kind of misconduct when I caught Frank following us from the crowd.

“Then, don‘t overthink,” He smiled, tugging me to one of the tubs of the Ferris Wheel. “Let‘s enjoy the ride, Anj.”

I nodded and stepped into the tub. When it started to move upward, I smiled at him nervously and looked at the sky.

Ah! Sky!

“Breath, Anj. I‘m not doing anything here,” He chuckled, but his laugh had an edge to it that, like me, he was nervous.

I breathed out, glanced at him, and tried my best to lift the corners of my mouth. My eyes focused on us getting higher, and we were quiet for a few seconds; that silence was choking me, and I hoped he would say something, not just hold and squeeze my hand.

He cleared his throat when our tub was on the top. “Sky...” I turned my head to him and stretched my arm, pointing to the sky. “Cannot be reached,” I joked, but something stabbed my heart, realizing the truth that no matter how many times the Mighty Sky brought me to cloud nine, he was still someone whom I could not reach.

Dylan lifted his hand, trembling as he attempted to touch the skin of my cheeks. When he successfully did, he smiled gently, trailing my face slowly with his fingers down to the corner of my mouth.

I swallowed hard, wanting to jump out of the tub as I met his eyes overflowing with loving emotions.

He breathed out. “Did you know that I cursed myself many times the first time I saw you, Anj?

I fell in love with you but what can I do? You were only twelve.”

“You‘re not old yourself when we met, Dylan,” I chuckled, turning my head elsewhere.

“I wanted to wait. I don‘t want to take advantage of you,” He closed his eyes, bringing the back of my hand to his lips.

I looked at him and stared at my hand, wanting to take it away from him because he would probably know I was shivering right now.

“I told myself, just a little more. You at seventeen, I will tell you how I truly feel for you, Anj.” My lips quivered. “But I got pregnant.”

“You ran away,” He uttered in a hushed tone. “I meant it when I said I wanted to marry you, Anj. I may not be ready to be a father, but I knew myself. I would do everything for you because I love you.”

I shook my head. “You know I can’t love you the way you want, right? I can‘t love anyone else,” Not even Sky. “You‘re wrong, Anj. You know you can, but what‘s stopping you?” He asked me.

I took my hand from him, clenched my hands into fists, and placed them on my lap. “I don‘t have my heart with me,” I whispered. Sky had stolen my heart the first time I met him on that road when he almost hit me. Maybe his red Ferrari squashed it, or it was lost mysteriously like the clothes and shoes I wore on the day we got married. “You love Sky,” His words were hurting. I chuckled. “Fortunately, I can say I don‘t. If I didn‘t get pregnant, it would have been easier just to forget him and everything else that happened between us.” It was a lie, of course. “Then give me a chance, Anj. I don’t care how long I would have to wait for you to love me. I will be a good father to the girls, do everything I can to help you raise them.” When I met his eyes, I saw the sincerity in his every word.

He lowered his head, and before I could move back, our lips met. Dylan didn‘t need to force me; I parted my lips for him, letting him kiss me and allowing his tongue to explore my mouth. He tasted butter and sweet, maybe because of what we ate, but other than that, I was afraid I was not feeling the thrill, and as our kiss became deeper, my big brain was working, something that never happened whenever Sky was kissing me.

I pulled away from him as my brain flooded my whole body with fear. “Anj...” He whispered as his eyes were telling me he wanted to kiss me again, but the Ferris Wheel had already stopped, and it was time for us to get out of the tub. It was time for me to run away. My whole body trembled with fear, not wanting to disappoint Dylan as part of me wanted to give him a chance, but I had to escape. I was born with a brain but not with a heart to love a man. I knew he tried to reach for my hand, but I made a quick

step as I stepped down the tub. Breathing in, my eyes searched for my kids, and when I found them, I ran toward them, missing that one step on the ground and tripping me. Before I realized what had just happened, I was already getting up, but I could not stand because my ankle was killing me with pain.