Chapter 2: - 1 -
Chapter 2: - 1 -
Am I alive?
Air goes in and out of my lungs, I'm breathing, so I must be... Right?
I can't feel my body, though. I can't see anything. I can't hear anything.
Am I standing?
Am I lying down?
What happened?
Someone died... I barely remember, although, my mind is enveloped in a complete fog.
Who was it? I want to wake up, I want to move, but no matter how hard I try, I can't.
Mom, Grandma... Does this mean I'll join you? Should I give up or should I fight?
Though I'm tired of fighting. I've done it all my life and I can't take it anymore... I don't want to.
But should I?
And if so... Why?
«Kitty».
That voice... I know I've heard it before. It's so familiar, I feel it so close even though I'm all alone.
Who is it? Why can't I see him?
«No one has ever had my heart before... Only you, kitty».
Who? Why can't I remember anything?
The sweetness in his voice makes me tremble. I feel my heart racing, and it's the second sign of life my
body expresses.
I want to see him, I long to touch him and feel him against my skin.
The need to be by his side is almost palpable.
I want to open my eyes, I want to find the owner of that voice.
Why can't I?
Help me, whoever you are.
Come and help me get out.
Find me.
«Come back to me quickly».
Where are you?
Take me with you, please. Don't walk away from me, find me.
If you don't give up, I won't either.
I won't give up, I promise. But please...
«I love you, Xander». Original from NôvelDrama.Org.
Xander?
That's me, right?
Yes, I am. I remember... I remember my face, I remember my complexion, I remember the color of my
hair, I remember my scars.
Does he love me? Yes, he said he loves me.
No one has ever told me that I am loved before. It feels so good that I want to cry, although, I'm not
sure I can.
I want to leave. I want to find a way to him. I want to tell him that I love him too, I miss him and I need
him as much as my next breath.
I will fight.
I will. I will come to you and find you.
«Alexei...».