Chapter 22: Mrs. Alice Ivanov
Up until now, after two days upon saying my decision about his proposal, I can’t still believe it. Getting married is just a dream for me. Of course, just like any other woman, they dream of marrying a guy they love. The man they see spending the rest of their life with. But in my case, given that I have a feeling for Logan, I can’t still name that feeling. Maybe I just didn’t know it yet or I am just afraid to accept the fact that’s why I continued to deny it.
“All done?” From the mirror, I looked at Logan’s reflection.
I smiled curtly before answering his question. “Almost done.”
He nods. “We’ll see you downstairs.” He said, stepping outside again.
As soon as he closed the door, I breathed hard. I lied. I am done… done with my clothes, my makeup, and even in my hair. I am just this nervous thinking that when I step out of this room, I’ll come back tied into a man who married me just for the sake of his responsibility.
Staring at my reflection, the single drop of tear didn’t escape my eyes. I wiped it out carefully, preventing myself to ruin my makeup. My mother told me before and she made sure that I will never forget that marriage is a sacred thing. And it should only be done if two people truly loved each other. I understand that there are lots of couples out there that are getting married just for convenience. Especially those elites who do marriage for the sake of their businesses. But as a woman who sees marriage not in that way, it is hard for me to marry Logan. It doesn’t just scare me but rather, it is also throwing me into tangles of emotions to the point that I couldn’t even know how to react and live with my decision.
“Calm down, Alice… there’s no turning back, remember?” I talked to myself like I am sort of an idiot. Heaving a deep sigh, I stood up and walked over to the door. As soon as I stepped out, my body went chill. My heart is thumping hard out of nervousness and not in an exciting. Before I headed downstairs, I once look back at my room.
In that room is where I leave all my doubts and uncertainties for the man who is currently waiting for me at the bottom of the stair.
“I think, my heart just dropped because of you, Alice,” Lyndon commented while gaping at me with awe in his face. “You really are beautiful,” he added praise.
I just smiled awkwardly upon hearing those words before turning my eyes to Logan who is currently staring at me with vivid intensity in his eyes. That threw me in uneasiness especially when he circled his arm around my waist as we walked outside where Helena and Aisle is waiting. Only Helena and Lyndon know about our so-called wedding. They are the only witness and I don’t know if I am going to be happy with that or not? I mean, yeah, this will surely benefit me knowing that the fewer people who will know this matter, the less risk it would be for me. But again, just like other girls out there who dream about an ideal wedding, I would love if there are other witnesses for our exchanging of vows. But since the wedding that will be going to happen is unplan, enough with the dreams, Alice.
Maybe, I just need to accept the fact that there is no ideal wedding reserve for me. All unplan just like what usually happened to my life.
Aisle is unplanned. Working with my boss’ som who happened to be my daughter’s father is unplanned as well. Even this, living with Logan and marrying him for us to be that perfect family. Father and mother, with a child.
“Logan Ivanov, do you take Alice Del Angelo as your lawful wife?” the judge asked.
Logan slipped a smile. “I do,” he answered which is even it is already expected, my heart still stopped for a beat.
“Alice Del Angelo, do you take Logan Ivanov as your lawful husband?” the judge then threw me that question that sent baffled in my mind.
It even took me for about seconds before I could even let out those two words as my answer. And as soon as he announced that I am already married to the man who stood flawlessly in front of me, my brain instantly malfunctioned. I caught my breath as I heard him telling Logan that he could kiss me already. Logan, on the other hand, leaned forward and cages my face to his palms. Expecting that he will be going to kiss me on my lips, I slowly close my eyes but also went wide when I felt his lips not on mine but my forehead.
Lyndon and Helena, as well as Aisle, cheered but not me, the bride. That kiss… the kiss he did just slapped me. It’s like a reality slapping me damn hard. He already used to steal a kiss from me and that was on my lips. But how come… how come that we are already married, he just kissed me on my forehead.
“This calls for a celebration, dude.” Lyndon bumped his brother’s shoulder with his. “Damn it, you just married the most beautiful woman on Earth. You should celebrate,” he added.Content provided by NôvelDrama.Org.
Logan chuckled. “Stop overreacting, Lyndon. But anyway, there’s a simple dinner later. You can come, you to Helena,” Logan announced, turning to Helena then landing his eyes on me and Aisle.
I instantly avoided his eyes and as soon as we reached home, I locked myself in my room for about half an hour. Thinking that life is sometimes unfavorable on me. I even cried and just try to act normal when the dinner came-hiding the pain Logan give to me.
I thought my marriage life would be happy but now that I am married to him, I think I thought it wrong.
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“Good morning, Mommy!” Aisle greeted me first before running towards me as soon as I walked over to the table where she and Logan is having their breakfast without me.
I opened my arms widely to catch her. “Good morning too, baby.” I kissed her cheeks and then carried her back to the table. “Did you help Daddy cook these foods?” I asked, still settling my eyes on Aisle.
“I didn’t, Mommy. I woke up late and when Daddy woke me up, the foods are ready.” She pouted.
“Oh, is that’s it?” I finally lifted my head to Logan only to find him staring at me. When I caught him, he darted immediately his eyes from me to his plate. As much as I wanted to slip a smile, I refrained from myself.
“Mommy, you know what, Daddy told me something last night ” I suddenly stopped chewing my bacon and looked down at Aisle who’s sitting beside me.
Frowning, I asked, “Told you what?”
“He told me that you–”
“Baby, didn’t I tell you that it was our secret? You should keep it from your Mommy.” Aisle, being a cute kid who like being caught stealing cookies on a jar, covered her mouth with her small hand.
She then looked me up with a forced smile on her lips. As much as I want to ask her, Logan already carried her back to her room to took her a bath before we go to the office.
“Good morning, newlywed!” I badly want to remove my heels suddenly and throw them to Lyndon who’s heading towards me and Logan as we walked in the hallway.
I roamed my eyes around and gritted my teeth when I realized that some of the employees on the floor heard what Lyndon have said. Avoiding their curious eyes, I hurriedly walk to reach the office as soon as I can. Several minutes have passed before the door then flew open again as Logan entered. I immediately noticed how his brows were twisted before throwing me his dagger looks.
“Why did you run?” he asked in a hard tone.
“I didn’t run–”
“Yes, you did. You just leave me alone in the hallway with my jackass brother. Do you think I wouldn’t notice that?”
“I didn’t run, I just walk fast to avoid those employees who heard Lyndon,” I reasoned out.
Logan clenched his jaw. “Why? Why do you want to avoid them, tell me. Are you ashamed because I am your husband?”
“My God, Logan!” I raised a voice, suddenly lifting my butt out of my chair. Staring at him furiously, I spoke. “It’s not about me being ashamed because you are my husband, it is me, being ashamed because they might judge me for suddenly being your wife. Are you even aware of how my life changed because of the rumors spreading around? Others thought that I seduces you that’s why I became close to you. How much more if they all find out that we have a child and we just married yesterday?!”
“Oh, is that the reason why? Then I’ll tell you, you have nothing to worry about. Before this day end, all people in my f*cking company will know who you are in my life.”
I gulped, suddenly stiffened in my place. “You gotta be kidding me.”
“I am afraid, I am not.”
And he was right, he didn’t just joke around because just like what he said that early in the morning, everyone in the company will find out the truth.
“Everyone, listen to me!” Logan shouted while almost all of the employees are in the lobby and the rest were on the second floor including us.
“Stop spreading rumors about my secretary because from now on, anyone who will be caught spreading shits about my wife will be punished. Understood?!”
Like the reaction written on everyone’s face, my reaction is the same as theirs. The air suddenly became suffocating making me breathe hard.
“This woman right beside me is not just my secretary, she is also the mother of my child. She is Mrs. Alice Ivanov… my wife!”