Battle of conscience
Hollis continued pumping his fingers in and out of me until my hand slid down and pressed his palm against my cleft, engaging my clit with his motions.
His fingers got rougher and more demanding bringing me closer to my release. My walls tightened around him as he took me on a beautiful journey of promised sexual satisfaction. I moved my hips to meet his strokes, hoping for those little more push, that would send me falling into oblivion.
“Do you want me inside of you?” He murmured to my hearing.
I was gasping desperately for a release at this point. So I didn’t even know what word to say.NôvelD(ram)a.ôrg owns this content.
“Use your mouth, Ugo.”
I could only shake my head, and suddenly, he stopped the beautiful motion inside me. I groaned with frustration and pushed my hips to him. A subtle way to tell him not to stop.
“Nope,” he said, his fingers slipping out of me. “If you want to come, then you’re going to come with my cock inside you.” He told me, shooting me a devilish smirk as his fingers slipped out of me.
I watched him quickly slip on a pair of shorts and a Tee. Then he made his way toward the bedroom.
Alone and embarrassed, my hands rose, covering my face, not sure how the hell I was ever going to be able to face the man again after what just happened. It would have been worse if I’d had an orgasm. But it was somehow much worse that he’d denied me.
“Oh, Lord!” I murmured to myself, finally stepping down from the chair.
I headed back to my closet, calling myself pitiful names. Cold and frustrated, I slipped on a thick cotton sleepwear and took extra time on my skin and hair, making sure to take enough time to allow Hollis to leave the room.
When I was done, I cracked the door slightly open and listened. Seeing and hearing no sound, I stepped into the room. My first instinct was to pick up my phone and call the one person I could freely discuss my current predicament with.
“Daisy…” I murmured once my best friend picked up her call.
“Oh my God! U. U.” The excited voice sounded from the other end of the line. “You got your phone, I can call you freely now?”
“Yes,” I replied.
“Thank God! I have lots of gist piled up. So much has happened that I’ve been wanting to share with you.” Daisy said.
“Omg! Me too Boo. But let’s start with you.” I said with so much excitement. I wanted to speak to her about my experience with Hollis so far, but I also wanted to hear her tell me everything I’ve missed.
“No baby, let’s start with you. How has it been with Hollis? How are you holding up?”
I sighed. The question had such deep meaning that I wondered if Daisy knew that much. “I’m fine Daisy baby. I’m just frustrated.” I added.
“Ugh… Hollis is not keeping to his words?”
“No, no. That’s not what I mean. I’m talking about…” I paused, breathing in and hoping to find the right words. “I’m sexually frustrated.” I let out.
“What? You guys haven’t… He hasn’t…”
“No,” I said, fast, too fast.
I had no doubt that the speed of my reply would only make Daisy think that I was lying. But that wasn’t my utmost care at the moment.
“No. He hasn’t made me do anything really.” I added. “We only sleep on the same bed, on his insistence.”
“Well! That’s new. The Ugo I know, would have damned the consequences and gotten what she wants. Do you mind telling me the reason for the abstinence that is obviously eating at you?”
“Well, I don’t… I don’t want any strings attached Daisy. This is not my home. When all of this is over, I’ll still go back to my old life. So you see, I….”
“So, getting it is going to mess with your head and your feelings. I understand that much.” Daisy said to me and I nodded, happy she understood.
“So… What do you think I should do?” I asked.
“Maybe you should get yourself off. Get a vibrator or something. You’re allowed to go out and shop for the things you want. Right?”
“Yes,” I replied, somehow loving the direction of our conversation.
“Then that’s the answer to your question. You give yourself the orgasm your body is craving, and that would shut out all that stupid dopamine. But…” she paused.
“Yes?” I replied, impatient.
“It might be a temporary solution. That man is insanely gorgeous, and that might be a little issue for you. But If you can shut him out, it would be fine. The only problem would be from him, if he decides to seduce you, then you’re gone.”
“Jesu!” I exclaimed. “Something happened today,” I whispered and went ahead to tell her some of the things that transpired between Hollis and me.
When I was done, Daisy whistled. “That was fuckin hurt. You have a lot of work to do, girlfriend. Two things might happen between the two of you. It’s either you get your body worked and given some good mind-blowing orgasm by him, or you’re gonna make the Dildo your best friend for the rest of the year.”
“Wow, way to go, Daisy. You’re doing such a great work. I actually feel great right now with such encouraging words from you.” I said, sarcastically.
I heard Daisy laugh sweetly. “Well, I’m just stating facts. Your man is handsome and if he keeps his moves up, he’ll definitely be irresistible.”
For the first time since we started the call, I laughed. “I miss you, D,” I said, admittedly.
“I know… I miss you too.” Daisy admitted. “Tell me, generally, how is living with Hollis?”
“Well, it’s great actually. Hollis Is surprisingly a traditionalist about marriage. He doesn’t believe in cheating.”
“Even if you aren’t sleeping with him?” Daisy asked.
“Even then,” I told her.
“Surprisingly Interesting. So, you’re not going to…?”
“Sleep with him?” I clarified.
“Yeah.”
“I’m not planning to,” I told her. “But damn Daisy, this man is so sexual, so raw, so… I don’t know the word to describe his mastery of the female body. Plus he is powerfully endowed down there.”
“It’s going to be a tough battle between you and your conscience Ugo. I don’t even envy you.” Daisy told me.
“God.” I muttered.”