Unspoken Pleasure

I scrolled through my contacts looking for Cindy’s number, when I thought about Sam. Even though I was not in the mood to hear her tell me how right she was, I owed her an apology and wanted to get it over with.

Fact was, Sam was usually the first person I called when I was pissed off or upset about anything, and I was the one she always came to when she was in the same boat. I hated to dump stuff on her. But like she always said, that’s what friends were for.

She answered on the second ring. “Hey, lover boy, what’s up?”

“Listen, Sam, I-”

“You need help cleaning another park tonight to make sure you get your piece tomorrow?”

“Thanks, Sam.” I said, “That’s not what I needed to hear right now.”

“Sorry, did I say that out loud?”

“You say everything out loud,” I said softly. “But don’t worry; I didn’t call to ask you for anything.”

“Hey, everything okay?” she asked. “You don’t sound good.”

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“Oh, shit! I’m sorry, Justin! I feel like a jerk! What happened, are you okay?”

The sincere concern in her voice made me feel even worse. Not just for earlier today, but for doubting that she had been looking out for me all along with Jen.

“I guess. I mean it’s nothing that serious, I guess.”

“What is it?”

“Jim called me. He’s at a beach party in Jamestown. The same one where Jen is and …”

“And what?”

“Sam, you were right. Jim said Jen was slutting around cock teasing all the guys and that her and Rob went into her uncle’s house to fuck around.”

“Holy shit! And right in front of him? ” “Yeah. She … she was even telling people she was going to do me tomorrow. She said she figured she would throw me a bone.”

“Oh, wow. That’s crappy, Justin. I’m really sorry.”

“Are you? You called it all along.”

“I … I guess I’m not sorry in one way because this would have been worse if you found out after you slept with her, but I’m sorry for you.”

“I’m sorry too, Sam. I’m sorry I was an ass today, and I … I’ve been one since I met her.”

“Don’t be sorry. I know you were caught up with her. I think you were more focused on just trying to have the first time and getting to where you were thinking more about the act than the girl. But you don’t owe me an apology.”

“Yeah, I do. I guess I wasn’t sold either and whenever you brought it up, I was a jerk and took it out on you.”

“Hey, that’s what friends are for. Besides, I rode you a lot about it.” She paused. “Justin, are you okay?”

“I-no, Sam, I’m not. I’m pissed off and I’m fucking humiliated! She’s up there fucking around and telling people I’m next. Are you kidding?”

“That’s pretty low. I didn’t think she was that bad.”

“Jim said she was drinking and these are her friends, so who knows? But I-”

“It hurts,” Sam finished. “I don’t blame you.”

“And I’m fucking frustrated!” I snapped. “I’ve been good, Sam, I really have, and tomorrow was supposed to be the day!”

“I know, but would you have wanted it to be with her and then you find that shit out?”

“I … you know what? Maybe I would have.”

“What?”

“Yeah, damn straight!” I was letting the anger get the better of me. “At least if I found out later I would have gotten laid!”

“Yeah, but-”

“And I made a promise about the first time. Once I do it I don’t have to think about that stupid promise anymore! I can just go have some real fun like I should have been doing!”

“Justin, that promise is one of the things that make you such a good guy! You’re a lot different than-”

“I don’t want to be!” I yelled. “I don’t want to be an asshole like my dad, but Christ, Sam, there’s nothing wrong with having sex! I’ve missed out on a lot of fun, but know what? No more! I had my heart set on this weekend and I’m getting it!”

“Whoa! Justin, you’re not going to still let Jen come over, are you?”

“Fuck her!” I laughed humorlessly. “No-wait-she’s fucking everyone else! No, not her.”

“Good, but then what do you mean you’re still going to?”

“I’m going to call Cindy and-”

“Cindy Reed?” Sam gasped. “Come on, Justin! She’ll fuck anyone. May as well as be with Jen.”

“She will fuck anyone. That’s the point. And she’s not like Jen because she doesn’t pretend she wants anything except to get laid! She’s all but jumped me before. I’m going to call her when I hang up with you and-”

“Justin, don’t do that!”

“Why the hell not? I’ll get what I want. Cindy will get what she wants. What’s the problem?”

“Your first time shouldn’t be that meaningless, not after how long you tried to make it a certain way.”

“Fuck that! I tried the right way. I blew off girls who would have because I didn’t think they would be serious, and then I get this close and it falls through. I waited long enough to keep my stupid promise to my mother.”

“That promise was sweet, not stupid.”

“Fine-stupid, sweet-pick what you want. My mother even made a crack that she knows I’m going to while she’s away. I will. It just won’t be with who she thinks it will be.”

“You’ll lie to her?”

“I don’t think she’ll actually ask, Sam. Mom doesn’t want to know the details. I’ll tell her next week Jen was screwing around on me, then I’ll move on and she won’t care if I start dating around.”

“Is that what you want to do, Justin? Go from girl to girl like your father?”

“Don’t pull that shit with me, Sam! I’m not my father! He used women. I won’t be using anyone. I’ll just hook up with girls just looking to hook up.”

“Justin, please think about it first. The summer’s coming and you’ll be at the beach a lot, and we start PC in September. You’ll meet a lot of new girls and-”

“I am not waiting!” I shouted. “I’m not waiting to meet someone, then dating until I see how I feel about them. That could take months! Fuck that!”

“Justin, please calm down. You don’t have to yell at me.”