WIDOW IN MY BED

Matt is like an antagonist who emerges from a webtoon, a true villain who secretly has a sad past but yearns for affection. When everyone loves only the protagonist as the male lead, Amanda will give her whole world to Matt.

God created Amanda and Matt to be together to heal each other’s wounds.

One time, Amanda remembered what she went through with Matt in Havana. At that time, she was indeed in mourning because her first marriage was ruined, and she was trying to forget all the treatment of her ex-husband, who physically and mentally damaged her.

Amanda’s not the kind of woman who lives free, like free sex or alcohol, even though she grew up in a Western culture. She prefers to read books, take afternoon walks, or busy herself with new recipes in the kitchen. The funny thing is, in Havana, Amanda forgot her habit of being a graceful princess, giving up her time to be manipulated by a mysterious man she thought was annoying.

This starts with misunderstanding, interrupting, and being Matt’s joke because, according to the man, flirting with Amanda is fun. Then, in just a few days, the two became hot sex partners.

Having sex in every corner of Havana, even a cramped public toilet with minimal illumination is a place Amanda will never forget.

Matt and that guy’s wildlife are interesting sides. Matt likes to comb his hair back like an ’80s man, throw a bold, dirty joke, hold Amanda’s hand along the beach barefoot, and ask Amanda to raise her hands to dance at a local bar like she’s not tomorrow.

Amanda thinks back: is this guy teaching her how to be happy?

Amanda’s hoping Matt’s still remembering. No matter what Amanda does, her feelings for Matt haven’t disappeared since that day. Her feelings get stronger daily, even though Amanda worries about making the same mistake again.

Even so, Amanda wants to make Matt laugh off like this moment, see the man from a distance while holding me and hugging Lio and Lea on the right-left-hand side-joking Amanda’s nephew and niece, her brother’s child with a woman named Kellani, telling stories to the two little angels pretending to be wolves but not creepy.

Steve approached Amanda, sitting by the terrace, looking at her husband intensely. That woman seemed gloomy when she should have smiled.

“Hey…” Steve Howard wiped Amanda’s shoulder, and her brother immediately sat with Amanda. The man may have guessed what his sister is thinking right now.

“Hi, Steve.” Amanda greeted Steve gently back.

“How’s your feel?”

“I’m good,” said Amanda, but Steve didn’t feel that way.

“What do you think in my sweet sister’s brain?” Steve slightly melted the atmosphere, which felt very gloomy from Amanda’s expression.

During their marriage, Matt never demanded anything from his wife, including biological children. Even Matt said that he only needed Amanda in his life.

However, as a wife, Amanda fears Matt will feel sorry for choosing her. Matt must have wanted children, anyway. Matt, who always treats Lio and Lea well, as if growing a fatherly feeling when he is with the two children, is proof that Matt misses a child’s laughter in their marriage.

Amanda tried to smile a little so her brother wouldn’t worry. “Honestly, your children playing with my husband look funny. They don’t know if the guy holding them is the dreaded mob boss, but they look comfortable, right?”

Steve digests. For a man who has always been smart and has been married twice, Steve is quite alert to the direction of this conversation.

“Yes, the three of them packed together,” Steve replied slowly to his sister. “I know what you’re thinking, Amanda. I want you to be happy, but don’t overthink it.”

“Overthinking?” Amanda’s forehead shrivelled.

“I’m not overthinking, Steve. Maybe it’s natural that a man isn’t content to have a wife like me.” Steve took Amanda seriously. He didn’t like it when his sister underestimated herself and Amanda’s bad habits that came after the domestic violence case hit her.

“Every man in the world should be very happy if he has a wife like you. My sister is a woman with many advantages. You are sincere and have many good things.”

“If only… I can trade many of those advantages for one of my shortcomings,” Amanda said.

Steve took Amanda’s hand slowly. “I am your real brother, Amanda. Surely, I would be very grateful if you would share your problems with me. I will always listen to you and be by your side. I can only say that I want what’s best for you. You’re all grown up, but you’re also a wife. You’ve decided to be with Matt until you find a deal without incriminating each other. You were married once, but that doesn’t mean you’re smarter in the household. You must trust Matt and keep negative thoughts about your partner when you’re not open to each other. So my advice is, don’t avoid something just because you’re scared. Talk to Matt,” Steve said calmly. “Did Matt treat you well?”

“Yeah, Matt’s a very good husband. He never sued my offspring for not wanting to make me sad,” Amanda smiled a little.

And then she said, “Matt’s been alone for a long time. He was forced to become an orphan at a very young age. I just want to give Matt a pedigree and a whole family. There’s mom, kid, and Matt as his father.” Amanda squeezed the skirt she was wearing. “Having our biological children even if I have to risk my life.” They now looked at each other.

“What does Amanda mean?” Steve tried to understand what his sister said, which he thought was out of line.

“I don’t feel what you feel-your trauma, your heartache. But once you marry Matt, you must promise God that there will always be times of trouble and joy, right? There is no perfect marriage, Amanda. Only two humans continue to learn to understand and accept each other.” Steve rubbed Amanda’s hair even though his sister was an adult. He knew Amanda was listening.

“Don’t make your own decisions that you think are right but will regret later. Children are important, but your partner’s feelings are equally important.” Steve was quiet, waiting for Amanda to respond.

“Many people in the world are given children beyond their wishes, but instead abandoned, hurt, some also consider their children to be a burden. But I… I’m ready to have a child and want to be a mother. I will take responsibility even if I must trade everything for my child… If I could, even just one, I’d like to give happiness to my husband, Steve…” Amanda’s voice sounds small, like repeating an unanswered statement. Frustrated.

Steve sighed. Asking carefully, “What’s underlying you thinking that extreme, Amanda? Are you sure Matt would be happy without you?” emphasized the question at the end.

Amanda shut up. Steve’s still convinced his sister’s words are fleeting emotions.

“Sweetheart… I don’t blame what you just said, considering the terrible things that happened to you in the past. But I know what kind of man Matthew Wallace is. He’ll be very sad without you, and that crazy man will get crazier without his wife…” Steve stopped to see Amanda’s expression, stroking his soft sister’s head.

“I understand your concern, but Matt’s not Chris. They were two men of different qualities and character. Matt never discusses or demands heredity, which means he has a lot of respect for you as his wife. Matt married you because he loves you. For him, you’re far from a biological child that doesn’t exist in this world. Do you understand?” However, Steve never wanted his sister to suffer again.

Steve continues, “All that fear is in your head, Amanda. You need to talk. Don’t keep your trouble.” Amanda knew Steve cared a lot about her. Steve was always there, even when Amanda was blown to pieces. “Need a hug, my sweet sister?”Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org exclusive © material.

“Please hug me, Steve…”

“You don’t have to ask for help, and I’ll always hug you whenever you ask…”

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